Hey y’all,

Oh my! I have not posted in 2 whole years! TWO YEARS! My how things have changed! I just took the time to read through everyone of my old posts, and goodness my life has changed! I’m not entirely sure anyone still follows my blog, but for those who do; here is an update. I am now going to college in Oklahoma on both academic and athletic scholarship(WHOOHOO), and I have long since broken up with the boyfriend that I used to write about. I don’t think I ever mentioned my best guy friend in any previous posts, but he has been my absolute best friend for years now. Anywho, we started dating a little over a year ago and now we’re engaged. Yep, you read that right! I am engaged! We haven’t taken any pictures yet, but I suppose I could post a picture of the ring later on. He is two years older than me, and has spent the last two years in the U.S. Air Force, but now he is a freshman in college just like me. I’m majoring in biomedical science and he is majoring in electrical engineering. There, unfortunately, will not be a wedding until after we both obtain our bachelors degree. We discussed it at great lengths and decided our education, for the time being, is much more important. 

One of my previous posts continuously sticks out in my mind, the one titled ‘Fact of Life’. I was terrified of growing up then. It was something I desperately wanted to avoid, but now I have realized that really it’s not all that bad. Don’t get me wrong, being a child is great! But growing up most definitely is not the end of the world like I thought it would be. Yes, things don’t always go as planned, but you take it one day, one step at a time and you adapt. Evolve. Adapt. That’s what you have to do to get through life. It just took me a long while to actually realize that. 

So now I am living in a dorm room, trying to grow container plants with a incredibly small light source, working to keep alive a long distance engagement, and joyously keeping a 4.0 GPA. Life is great. It has its struggles, but it is a beautiful journey.

 

Carpe Diem.

Predictor of All Things Gout

Time. Something that I simply don’t have enough of. Time. A supply we are all running out of. Lately I haven’t had the time to write anything that would hardly make any sense. But I have got a lot of run-of-the-mill stuff done. Blah. Nobody cares about all that. Sitting in class everyday ruins my creativity. It’s a buzz saw to my imagination. However, I have gotten back to running the last week. I’m slowly building myself up for the first meet next Saturday. I haven’t had enough time to really be able to run any good times. But just being able to compete again will be good for me. My best friend has recently came up with something on her foot, it makes me laugh because I took one look at it and told her it was gout. Now we are 17, well she’s 16, but still, gout isn’t common at our age. Our athletic trainer said it was a stress fracture. I told him no, no its definitely not. It’s swollen, it’s red, it’s hot, and it’s getting worse everyday. She can’t walk, so yesterday she went to the doctors office…guess what it was? …gout. I tried to tell them, but no. So no my aspiration to be a doctor is set in stone. I do believe I was born for it. I’ve already diagnosed one patient. I mean c’mon, don’t you agree? In the meantime, running has me incredibly sore, and you know what? It’s glorious! Oh praise God it has been so amazing! To just feel like I have done something!!! My abdominals, my thighs, my calves, my hips, my arms. It’s all sore, and it feels so good! Never in my life have I been so happy as I have been the last week. Just because this all feels so good. Thank you Lord, for giving me the opportunity to run. Thank you do much. Life is grand, guys. It really is beautiful, and that is something we often overlook. But just being able to breathe really is a blessing. Nothing is ever bad enough to stop breathing. And if you have a roof over your head, and food in your stomach, you’re already ahead of millions of people in this world. So remember this when you’re eating dinner tonight, and checking the Internet or going to bed. Remember how beautiful everything is while you walk or run today. Just sit back and take it all in. Carpe diem.

The Art of Being Frugal

My new fat penguin piggy bank. Frugality. Something I am trying to work better on. So by having a nice fat piggy bank, I am trying to save my change. Day by day, and I am setting a goal along with it. Something to spend the money on, to reward myself. Its a new small thing that I am working on for myself. I have found that we very rarely do things just for ourselves. And I have realized that I do almost nothing for myself. So my new plan for my life, is to just chill out and do way more myself. Because it is my life, and I am in charge of it. Life is good. Carpe Diem.

Closest Thing to Perfection

This is my life. This is what I do.

Running.

I know that there arent many people out there that wake up in the morning and just get the urge to go run 3-10+ miles. But I and the select few in this world that are like me, we do. Running for me is perfection. And I know that I speak for every runner out there, perfection in this world doesnt exist, but running is the closest I can get to it. Its cleansing, its knowing that I can go out and put my body through so much, and feel so good about myself afterwards. Its love and hate and sacrifice and satisfaction, all rolled into one. Running is escape, its breathtaking, beautiful. Running is indescribable. This picture was taken during one of my summer practices about a year or so ago. The girl in green is my sister from another mister, we have ran together so long that when we begin to run, our breathing and our stride is automatically in sync. Me, well I am the girl in white. It was taken after about 5 miles, we had came back in to get a bit to drink and were heading back out. Summer is time to build up a base for xc in the fall, so we were doing long, slow miles. We carried on conversations through out every run that summer. We discussed everything, from our life plans, to boys, to drama, to intellectual ideas. From music, to lunch, to what we were going to do tomorrow, next week, next year. We discussed worries and hardship, happiness and love. Yeah, we ran alot of miles, but our partnership made the miles go by faster. To me, there is nothing better than an open road, and a friend to run it with you. In life, I try to surround myself with runners, because they are almost the only people that I can relate to. My team, well theyre my family. And my boyfriend, who also runs, well hes more than just a boyfriend to me. Running is so much like life. It has its ups and downs. Yeah, there are days where I hate my running shoes, I hate that track and those trails. I just dont want to do it. I have those days, but so many more times, I have the days where I find myself counting down the hours til I can get out of class, lace up my shoes and find my happiness. My special place. I have found out, that yes, it is true. Running never takes more than it gives back. Its like a relationship, except that it doesnt care who you hang out with, or where you go out at night. It doesnt care what you look like or sound like, it doesnt care that your hair doesnt lay flat or that your socks never match. Running only cares that you pay the road a visit sometimes, it only cares that you love it unconditionally, and that you give it as much as it gives you. Running isnt just a sport, its a lifestyle, its a relationship. Its more than a want, its a need, a demand. A demand for you to get up off your ass and do something, something you wont ever regret. So the next time that you’re laying on the couch, watching tv, or maybe even sitting at a desk, stressed with some boring paperwork. Give yourself 15, 20, maybe even 30 minutes if you have it, and go for a run. Yeah, it may hurt, and it may burn a bit at first. Go at your pace, listen to your feet hit the pavement, feel your heart work a little bit. But come back, with a mindset that nothing else in this world can give you. You owe it to yourself.

Life Changer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY

Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus

This. is. amazing. I promise you, that it will be well worth your time. This video, this guy, this poem, helped me to better understand all of my feelings and beliefs of Christianity and Jesus Christ. We are all guilty of getting caught up in day to day life and forgetting about our savior, our creator. Its so much easier to let go and live the wrong way, then to straighten up and live the right way, the right way through God. But I, I dont want to miss Jesus in my life. I have missed him once, I have went down the wrong path before. I dont want to miss him again, I dont want to go one precious day of my life without the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY

Sexual Healing.

Another amazing video, by the same guy. Still amazing stuff. And so true. Please check it out, its well worth it.

What the Hell.

Ive always seen people blog. Ive always wanted to blog myself. But I have one problem…I have never known what to blog about. Im 17 years old, and even though my life seems interesting to me, it doesnt seem to be to anyone else that I know. I dont suppose Im like most other 17 year olds…no…I dont really like to party, I do love to run, and God is the most important thing in my life. But even though I dont really stick to the status quo, I still dont believe people find me interesting. So what do people even find interesting? Scandals? Rockstars? News headlines? Tragedys? Celebrities? The things that we should hate hearing about, we love. Explain to me how that works out? Blech, whether people find me interesting or not, I am going to blog. What about? About myself, about random crap that nobody even cares about, about running, about life, about society, and most of all…about God.